Chapter 34

Ahlan Ahlaan;p

Tonight this year will be over. I just want to say sorry for anyone i hurt, for anyone needed me and i wasn't there for them. In this year, i met people who changed me to a better person, and lost people who i realized they were with me for 'ma9la7a'. And for those who talked about me, did bad things to me, and disrespected me, i forgive you with a smile on my face<3 May 2014 be one of the best years you ever lived. Happy early new year from me, to you;*

I love you-
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"Rawan"
"Rawan yallah goumay"
"Rawona 7bebti goumay madrsa"


What's happeing to the world?

My father is waking me up gently? Wow.


Rawan: "Yuba banam" i said yawningly
Dad: "Goumay madrsa rawan!"
Rawan: "Bas 5 dgayeg"
Dad: "La yallah goumay"
Rawan: "Enzain ga3ed Khaled w a7mad b3dain ana"
Dad: "Klhum ga3den w mbadlen ela entay!"


Laish ya khwani msht6en 7ag elmadrsa laish;'(


Dad: "RAWAN!!" he screamed.


Okay, now agdar agoum hatha obouy ely a3arfa=))!


Rawan: "Enzain ka gemt baba tkfa la t9arekh mn el9b7"
Dad: "Yallah ya baba shoufay elsa3a cham entay ely m2akhratna"

I looked at the clock on the table next to me, 6:35.


WTF!!!!!!

I'm late!!!!!

On the first day!!!!!


I rushed to the bathroom, did my thing, washed my face, brushed my teeth.
I then went back to my room and saw my school uniform, 7ashatni 7alat ekt2ab;( I wore my unifrom, and since my hair was in good-looking so why to tie it? I placed my thick black band, sprayed some perfume, grabbed my bag and went to the living room.


Khaled: "Shd3wa rawan re7at el36er lai hni wa9la ray7a 3rs wela madrsa?
Rawan: "Eeh ray7a 3rs"
Khaled: "7mdellah w elshkr"
Rawan: "Shkr wela ml7?"
Khaled: "Shoufay rawan wrab elk3ba maly khilg bl'39b barou7 wbshouf ashkal zga hnak la af9il 3laich"

I laughed, yes it is funny to me=))


We arrived to school and each one of us to his section..

I entered my class, saw my friends, and hugged each and one of them. I really missed them.
I took a glance after we were all complete, 11 students;p


Time at first day at school never pass slowly, it's a very good thing to me though.




I went back home w lazem 6ab3an...

Dad: "Ha shloun kan awal youm mdrsa?"
Rawan: "3ajeeb"
Khaled&A7mad: "Waaaaaii33"
Dad: "Waaih hathoul mn awalha wai3 khal nshouf shtbd3oun hal sna"
Rawan: "La ana gayla bashid 7aily hal sna" my dad started laughing;( e7ba6 hl3ayla;(
Dad: "Wallah th7akteni yuba klsna tgoulen halmaqoula"
Rawan: "La la hal sna '3air 9adegni"
Dad: "Bnshouf klshay ybayen b3dain"
Rawan: "Okay btshouf"

I was saying it so confidently but i knew that i will not able to bring in the 90's..
But why not rawan? If i put effort on what i want i can achieve it, but laziness controls me..


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School was going great, i was really showing effort and i hope it remains constant.


This year i changed, i became more closer to my friends than i was before, Layan, to be exact. I told them things about me they didn't know before. You can say that my trust grew bigger in them this year.


I tried giving up on guys, bas t3arfoun lma a smoker wants to quit smoking but he can't? It became his drug. Yes, that's exactly me, i just can't and i don't know why! I hate it. It's so not a good thing for me i know it.



I came back from school at this worst day of my year.

New message in kik from a guy named 9ala7 AlX

9ala7Alx: Rawan?
RawanAlx: Hala?

Something caught my attention, his last name. It was the same as 7mad's.

9ala7Alx: Shlounich?
RawanAlx: Tmam
9ala7Alx: Doum
RawanAlx: Tdoum ayamik
9ala7Alx: Ajma3en
RawanAlx: B'3ait shay?
9ala7Alx: Eeh
RawanAlx: Shb'3ait?
9ala7Alx: B'3ait mn wagtich n9 sa3a
RawanAlx: Laish?
9ala7Alx: Bkalmich bsalfa
RawanAlx: A3arfik?
9ala7Alx: La bas ana a3arfich
RawanAlx: Shloun?
9ala7Alx: Ra7 t3arfen klshay b3dain wallah, abdi blsalfa?
RawanAlx: Okay
9ala7Alx: Awal shay feh a7ad yamich?
RawanAlx: Eeh ahale
9ala7Alx: Wakhray 3anhum
RawanAlx: Laish;/

I was really confused...

9ala7Alx: 3shan bgoul elsalfa
RawanAlx: Oula sh'hal salfa elkha6era?;p
9ala7Alx: Tra ra7 tbchen lma t3arfen elsalfa:)

I was scared, he was really freaking me out.
I read it but ignored, i kinda regret answering him he was such a weirdo!

9ala7Alx: Alooo!!!
RawanAlx: Hala?
9ala7Alx: 7mad msawe 7adth rawan

At the moment when my eyes read these 4 words i froze. I knew bad news will hit me today and it did.
I felt something in me i didn't feel before, feel of worry, regret, sadness, feel of not wanting 7mad to go, i don't want anything bad happen to him

I went to the bathroom with my phone, locked the door, and started crying...
I remembered our good&bad times together...
I remembered his laughter...
I remembered his jelousy...
I remembered his care, his love...

I want him, i want him safe.


Incoming call. Unknown number...

Rawan: "Aloo?" my voice was shaky w mbayen eni knt bachya
Stranger: ........................................


To be continued...