Chapter 34

Ahlan Ahlaan;p

Tonight this year will be over. I just want to say sorry for anyone i hurt, for anyone needed me and i wasn't there for them. In this year, i met people who changed me to a better person, and lost people who i realized they were with me for 'ma9la7a'. And for those who talked about me, did bad things to me, and disrespected me, i forgive you with a smile on my face<3 May 2014 be one of the best years you ever lived. Happy early new year from me, to you;*

I love you-
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"Rawan"
"Rawan yallah goumay"
"Rawona 7bebti goumay madrsa"


What's happeing to the world?

My father is waking me up gently? Wow.


Rawan: "Yuba banam" i said yawningly
Dad: "Goumay madrsa rawan!"
Rawan: "Bas 5 dgayeg"
Dad: "La yallah goumay"
Rawan: "Enzain ga3ed Khaled w a7mad b3dain ana"
Dad: "Klhum ga3den w mbadlen ela entay!"


Laish ya khwani msht6en 7ag elmadrsa laish;'(


Dad: "RAWAN!!" he screamed.


Okay, now agdar agoum hatha obouy ely a3arfa=))!


Rawan: "Enzain ka gemt baba tkfa la t9arekh mn el9b7"
Dad: "Yallah ya baba shoufay elsa3a cham entay ely m2akhratna"

I looked at the clock on the table next to me, 6:35.


WTF!!!!!!

I'm late!!!!!

On the first day!!!!!


I rushed to the bathroom, did my thing, washed my face, brushed my teeth.
I then went back to my room and saw my school uniform, 7ashatni 7alat ekt2ab;( I wore my unifrom, and since my hair was in good-looking so why to tie it? I placed my thick black band, sprayed some perfume, grabbed my bag and went to the living room.


Khaled: "Shd3wa rawan re7at el36er lai hni wa9la ray7a 3rs wela madrsa?
Rawan: "Eeh ray7a 3rs"
Khaled: "7mdellah w elshkr"
Rawan: "Shkr wela ml7?"
Khaled: "Shoufay rawan wrab elk3ba maly khilg bl'39b barou7 wbshouf ashkal zga hnak la af9il 3laich"

I laughed, yes it is funny to me=))


We arrived to school and each one of us to his section..

I entered my class, saw my friends, and hugged each and one of them. I really missed them.
I took a glance after we were all complete, 11 students;p


Time at first day at school never pass slowly, it's a very good thing to me though.




I went back home w lazem 6ab3an...

Dad: "Ha shloun kan awal youm mdrsa?"
Rawan: "3ajeeb"
Khaled&A7mad: "Waaaaaii33"
Dad: "Waaih hathoul mn awalha wai3 khal nshouf shtbd3oun hal sna"
Rawan: "La ana gayla bashid 7aily hal sna" my dad started laughing;( e7ba6 hl3ayla;(
Dad: "Wallah th7akteni yuba klsna tgoulen halmaqoula"
Rawan: "La la hal sna '3air 9adegni"
Dad: "Bnshouf klshay ybayen b3dain"
Rawan: "Okay btshouf"

I was saying it so confidently but i knew that i will not able to bring in the 90's..
But why not rawan? If i put effort on what i want i can achieve it, but laziness controls me..


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School was going great, i was really showing effort and i hope it remains constant.


This year i changed, i became more closer to my friends than i was before, Layan, to be exact. I told them things about me they didn't know before. You can say that my trust grew bigger in them this year.


I tried giving up on guys, bas t3arfoun lma a smoker wants to quit smoking but he can't? It became his drug. Yes, that's exactly me, i just can't and i don't know why! I hate it. It's so not a good thing for me i know it.



I came back from school at this worst day of my year.

New message in kik from a guy named 9ala7 AlX

9ala7Alx: Rawan?
RawanAlx: Hala?

Something caught my attention, his last name. It was the same as 7mad's.

9ala7Alx: Shlounich?
RawanAlx: Tmam
9ala7Alx: Doum
RawanAlx: Tdoum ayamik
9ala7Alx: Ajma3en
RawanAlx: B'3ait shay?
9ala7Alx: Eeh
RawanAlx: Shb'3ait?
9ala7Alx: B'3ait mn wagtich n9 sa3a
RawanAlx: Laish?
9ala7Alx: Bkalmich bsalfa
RawanAlx: A3arfik?
9ala7Alx: La bas ana a3arfich
RawanAlx: Shloun?
9ala7Alx: Ra7 t3arfen klshay b3dain wallah, abdi blsalfa?
RawanAlx: Okay
9ala7Alx: Awal shay feh a7ad yamich?
RawanAlx: Eeh ahale
9ala7Alx: Wakhray 3anhum
RawanAlx: Laish;/

I was really confused...

9ala7Alx: 3shan bgoul elsalfa
RawanAlx: Oula sh'hal salfa elkha6era?;p
9ala7Alx: Tra ra7 tbchen lma t3arfen elsalfa:)

I was scared, he was really freaking me out.
I read it but ignored, i kinda regret answering him he was such a weirdo!

9ala7Alx: Alooo!!!
RawanAlx: Hala?
9ala7Alx: 7mad msawe 7adth rawan

At the moment when my eyes read these 4 words i froze. I knew bad news will hit me today and it did.
I felt something in me i didn't feel before, feel of worry, regret, sadness, feel of not wanting 7mad to go, i don't want anything bad happen to him

I went to the bathroom with my phone, locked the door, and started crying...
I remembered our good&bad times together...
I remembered his laughter...
I remembered his jelousy...
I remembered his care, his love...

I want him, i want him safe.


Incoming call. Unknown number...

Rawan: "Aloo?" my voice was shaky w mbayen eni knt bachya
Stranger: ........................................


To be continued...
 

Chapter 33

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 September 8th, 2013...


One day left from this 3 month vacation, it was bittersweet, yet went fine...
One day left for me to see my friends, i can't wait.
One day left for stress, exams, and disappointment...

Why do we have to go to school?:(

I tried my best to forget about tomorrow and focus about today, live for today.


I woke up fresh this morning, wore my neon gap training pants, and a white hollister shirt, and my neon nike shoes...
No one was awake and i was not on the mood to go for breakfast.


Since no one is already up, i packed my clothes neatly and placed them inside the bag to be ready to go home..

I took my phone and headed to the lobby..
I sat there watching elraye7 w elrad;p

Movenpick elbd3 was full with emarati people; i loved it though, they are so sweet!


I played with my phone and started chatting with my friends, i really can't wait to see them...

Jenan, Jana, Jude, Layan, and Haya. < they are the reason i always hang a smile on my face i'm so blessed to have such great friends, actually sisters, like them .


Haya will not be with us this year at our school, this is the worst news my friends & I can get.

Haya is short, brown-skin (not that much), mid-length hair, has dimples, and simply, adores the kardashians & jenners, am i right hayon?;p Simply bdoun mujamala? She's one of a kind<3


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The day at the shalaih was coming to its end..

Dad: "Rawoon"
Rawan: "Hala yuba"
Dad: "Yallah rou7ay badlay bnt'3da eb fridays 3shan nrja3 elbait mbacher bacher wrakum mdrsa"
Rawan: "Ka yuba ana mbadla"
Dad: "Eeh zain 3yal sbgouna enty w foz w khaltich ana wekhwanich w omich w yadtch nyekum b3dain"
Rawan: "Shnu mara7 nrou7 blsyara?"
Dad: "La mashi khou mu b3eed"
Rawan: "Eeh ok"

I went to my aunt's room..

Rawan: "Yallah goumay ana weyach w fwaiz bnrou7 gabl obouy w omi fridays"
Aunt: "Mnu gal?"
Rawan: "Obouy"
Aunt: "Yallah ka al7en abadel"

I spotted foz in the living room..

Rawan: "Yallah emshay"
Foz: "Wain?"
Rawan: "Nan6er khalty 3la ma tbadel 3shan nrou7 fridays"
Foz: "Eeh yallah ka nan6erha"
Rawan: "Emshay nan6erha barra"
Foz: "Maly khilg rawon"
Rawan: "Yallah 3ad shnu hatha kila malich khilg?"
Foz: "Ufff yallah emshay bas fukeena mn lsanch"

I giggled.
As we stepped to the parking lots, Turki 'bu short burtaqali' was standing next to their car placing their things in it.

Foz: "Hala obouy" she said in a low vioce
Rawan: "Bas ya 7maraa"
Foz: "Shtaben"
Rawan: "Bas la tswen 7rakat"
Foz: "Waay enzain enzain"

He was smiling and staring trying to capture our attention, but we, or should i say i, didn't care.
My aunt came out which made us be straight now.

As we walked to the exit door i peaked behind to take a glance of him for maybe the last time?;p He was staring, still staring.
I don't know why, but something inside of me told me he doesn't wants us to leave.


We arrived to Friday's, settled, ordered, ate, had so much fun with my mom's family side.
It was a good way to spend the last day of summer vacation.


Rawan: "Yuma yallah mta bnrid?"
Mom: "Taw elnas laish?"
Rawan: "Abi arou7 7amaam"
Mom: "Ka rou7ay dshay fe mnak"
Rawan: "Mabi wai3 wa9ekh"
Mom: "Enzain ma tgdren tan6ren ya3ni?"
Rawan: "Laa"
Mom: "Khla9 rou7ay entay w foz 7mam movenpick w g3daw hnak n6rouna 3la ma ndfa3"
Rawan: "Ok yallah fwaiz emshay"

On our way back..

Foz: "Tkhayely nshouf bu short burtaqali?"
Rawan: "Esma Turki tara"
Foz: "Uff shdrach? Lykoun tklmena?"
Rawan: "La shaku bas sma3t obouh ynadeh turki"
Foz: "Ahaa eeh ely ehwa tkhayly nshoufa"
Rawan: "Ok khal nshoufa shny ya3ni shb9eer?"
Foz: "Bakhith raqma"
Rawan: "7beebti wely 3afeech mu nag9a ana"
Foz: "6a3 hathe enty mn9jich la a9lan shakla yahel"
Rawan: "Eeeh"

We arrived, i entered the lobby's restroom because they shut down everything in our room.
After i was done, foz & i waited for my family at the couches..
And guess who came out i don't know where from? Turki, yes.


Do you think it's a coincedence that i see him in every place i go?
Or is he stalking?

Klshay jayez..


He sat on the exact table infront of us and started giving and taking smiles with foz, i felt really embarressed.

My phone was ringing, Incoming call, Mama.

Rawan: "Aloo?"
Mom: "Ha rawan wainkum?"
Rawan: "Lobby"
Mom: "Yallah nzlaw elm9af6 ely t7at e7na we9alna"
Rawan: "Yallah okay"

I hung up...

Rawan: "Yallah emshay we9alaw bnrou7" i highered my voice while talking to foz 3shan ysma3 ena tra e7na bnamshi=))
Foz: "Yallah" she smiled, to him 6ab3an not to me.

We stood up and he stood up too, and guess what? he spoke this time...

Turki: "M3a elsalama 7afthkum allah"


How cute strangers can be? They might stalk, laugh, make funny things to you, but never crosses the line. These type of people was raised by precious parents who've known how to make them associate with others.
Boys aren't just made for flirting, and girls aren't just made to play with.
Each and every person has a heart, has feelings.
 
Think before you talk.
Analyze before you make sure.
Smile before you cry.
Help before you ask for something.


Turki is one of the guys i look up to somehow, he kept staring and stalking for almost 3 days but never a day crossed the line or did something to foz & i that he shouldn't do.


Btw always remember: Nobody's born perfectly perfect. كل البشر عندها عيوب.