Chapter 40

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I woke up the next with a huge headache.
I went to my mom's room to take a pill of panadol..

I went to school & nothing excited really happened..
I arrived back home, ate lunch, took my phone and found a kik message from 7mad..


7madAlx: Rawan mshtaglich

I read it without replying..


I did miss him, but i didn't want to show it.


7madAlx: Rawan?
RawanAlx: Hala 7mad?
7madAlx: Gtlich mshtaglich
RawanAlx: Adre graita
7madAlx: W ma rdaity?
RawanAlx: Tshtaglik el3afya
7madAlx: Mu mshtagtli?

A LOT 7MAD!!

RawanAlx: Madre
7madAlx: Abi ashoufich bacher throuri
RawanAlx: Magdar ayam madrsa obouy ma ykhaleni a6la3
7madAlx: Maly sh'3l lazm ashoufich 6al3elich ay 7ja

I started to think of what am i going to do..
Maly '3air aisha..

RawanAlx: Dgega wardlik khabar
7madAlx: Na6rich

I switched to whatsapp and told aisha...

Rawan: 3wash
Aisha: Hala
Rawan: Bacher 3ndich shay?
Aisha: Eeh kuleya
Rawan: Mta tkhl9en?
Aisha: 1
Rawan: T6al3eni?
Aisha: Wain
Rawan: 360
Aisha Sh3ndich?
Rawan: Bashouf 7mad
Aisha: Hala wallaaah;p mtaaaa??
Rawan: Chalba entay chalba 9a7?:)
Aisha: At'3shmar;$
Rawan: Elsa3a 1 ou n9 lazm ana mnak:)
Aisha: Eeh okay ma 3laih a6la3 mbacher l3youn 7mad;$
Rawan: Zagaaaaaa:)??
Aisha: Kaaaaaak;$

I went to take the permission from my mom..

Rawan: "Mama 3adi a6-"
Mom: "S2lay obouch" she interrupted me, 7ta ma kamalt eljumla;D

Rawan: "Baba?"
Dad: "Hala?"
Rawan: "3adi a6la3 m3a 3wash w foz?"
Dad: "Mta?"
Rawan: "Bacher"
Dad: "Wain?"
Rawan: "360"
Dad: "Mdrsa ela7ad"
Rawan: "Adre baba khla9t kl wajbat elweekend ma 3lay shay"
Dad: "Sh3ndkum shbtswoun?"
Rawan: Bas bndsh film ntmsha shway w nrd"
Dad: "Enzain"
Rawan: "3adi?"
Dad: "Eeh rou7ay bas elsa3a cham filmkum?"
Rawan: "Madre bnrou7 nshouf elwaqt"
Dad: "Okay"


I took my phone and told 7mad..

RawanAlx: 7mad?
7madAlx: 3younah
RawanAlx: Okay ra7 aye bacher
7madAlx: 7lfay
RawanAlx: Wallah
7madAlx: Khla9 3yl ba7jz 7ag film 3adi?
RawanAlx: Yeah
7madAlx: OK! Mu gadr a9br ;p!!
RawanAlx: Lool;p


I felt something strange in me..
My stomach started to have butterflies..


Shfech rawan?

Tra lel7en ma shfteh!


I know.
But deep inside of me i did see him.


Is what i'm doing wrong? But i love him.
But does he love you? I don't know..


I shut my mind from thinking, got dressed, and went with my dad to zwara...

It was nearly 3pm..

I entered, kissed my grandfather's head and continued saying hi to everyone..
1 guy captured my attention..
Meshari..

I stood in my place staring at him, he didn't see me yet, so i quickly went outside "el7oush"

I plugged my earphones and just kept listening to music and walking..

I got bored so i entered again to eat lunch, and by every second i ask god to not let meshari see me, but i guess he wanted this to happen..

Meshari: "Rawan?"
Rawan: "Hala"
Meshari: "Shlounich?"
Rawan: "Tmam" i fake smiled
Meshari: "Ana b3ad tmam mashkoura enich s2alty"

I stared at him in 'Shfeha omik?' expression=))...

I took a plate and started putting the things i needed not caring about Meshari.
I knew he was just standing there staring at me, but i just ignored..


After i was done, i washed my hands and went to sit with my cousins and el3ayla elkarema (Allah ya7fth'hum enshallah) in the living room..
And yes, meshari was sitting there..

Baba 3li: "Rawoon ma tsalmen ylnz'3a"
Rawan: "Weeih baba 3li ma shftik"

I went and kissed his head, he is an old man..

Baba 3li: "Klhatha w mas shfteni?"
Rawan: "Hhh walla ma sheftik;("
Baba 3li: "Mashour dan khal tg3ad rawon abi asoulef m3aha"

Meshari made space for me to sit.
Baba 3li was on my right side, and meshari was on the left..

Baba 3li: "Mashallah re7at sha3rich bkhour mtbkhra?"
Rawan: "Eeh 3ami Basil lazm klym3a blzwara ybakhir sha3re" i smiled
Baba 3li: "Tra mafe mthl 3amich Basil"
Rawan: "Adre" i giggled
Baba 3li: "Enshallah ybakhrich byoum 3rsch goulay ameen"
Rawan: "Ameen" a grin was filling my face back then


I stared at Meshari's face and gave him a smile, i don't know why i did it.
I just felt like doing it;p


Sara, Noor, and I were sitting bl7oush listening to music..

.....: "Ha shtswouuun hniii"

It was Khaled, Meshari's elder brother and Sara's closest cousin..

Sara: "Khaloud btrou7on chabd elyoum?"
Khaled: "Ana la b6la3 m3a 9a7bi bas mashour w 7mood wkhwanich byro7on"
Sara: "Farou7 btkoun mnak?"

Farah is her cousin..

Khaled: "Madre wallah laish btrou7en?"
Sara: "Madre rawon noro trou7on?"
Rawan: "La ana mabi arou7"
Khaled: "Eeh akher shay ashoufich eb avenues a 360 ha"
Rawan: "La qa9dik el3aks ana ely kila ashoufik hnak" i laughed and he smiled


Khaled is 19 years old, tall, has a tanned skin, mamlou7 mashallah, has a muscular body bas mu "over" nafs ba3th elshbab allah y7fth'hum=)) And he has a great sense of humor;p


Khaled: "Yallah ana mashi taboun shay? Shamma 7amdan taben shay?"

He meant Sara because by his own perspective, he thinks that Sara looks like Shamma 7amdan..
And sara on the other hand, calls him Fahad Albannai because really in some way he looks like him;p

Sara: "Baba 3li berou7 m3ak?"
Khaled: "Eeh bas barou7 ayebla elsyara 3shan ma ygdar yamshi wayed bag6a elbait m3a mashour wb6la3"
Sara: "Okayy bye"

Rawan: "Entay shfech 7aqaqty m3a obou mn yab elwlad"
Sara: "Shtabeen"
Noor: "Kaaaak eeh wallah 9j"
Sara: "Waay shtaboun weld khalte w kaife"

Actually another way to say it, she wants to "show off" jedamna ena shoufaw tra weld khalte eljamel w che:::
To hell Sara plz:)!


 

Chapter 39

Salaaaaaaaam;p


This story will end SOON and i mean it so SOOON;p!!


I might write a 100% FICTION "not true" story!
So ely yabeni aktib a new story YGOULE 3shan etha wayed yaboun i will write a new story..


Enjoyy x
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Teacher: "Come on grade 9 break is over let's go to class"

I was not in the mood to study at this day..

I went back home, ate lunch, did my homework, and sat playing with my phone...

I entered kik wanting to chat with 7mad, i missed him and i wanted to thank him for that day

Rawan: Gwa 7mad

For about 10 minutes later he replied...

7mad: Hala obouy allah ygwech

Rawan: La tboug kelmtii;p

I meant 'Hala obouy' cuz i like saying that word..

7mad: Lool asef;p

Rawan: Shlounik?

7mad: Zain, wentay?

Rawan: 7mdellah bkhair

7mad: Doum

Rawan: Weyak

7mad: Ameeeeen ya rab mu m3a '3airy

Rawan: Lool maynoun!

7mad: Eeh maynoun feech

Okay i was a little bit shy, just a little bit ;D

I read but ignored, madre shagoul..

7mad: Shfech skatay

Rawan: Mafeni

And there it goes..

The fact that i don't want to talk to boys anymore hit me again..

So not at the good time!!

Rawan: 7mad ana bas b'3ait agoulik mashkour 3la thak elyoum jad kan a7la youm b7yate 9j ena ma kan wedi ashoufik wenta bhal 7ala bas allah ygawmik blsalama wyshfeek thankyou<3

7mad: Ana ely elmafrouth atshakar mnich entay akher ensana hgait'ha ra7 tyeli wallah kbartay b3aine wayed w mukanich bgalbi kebar ba3ad;p

Rawan: Teslam ma tga9r yallah tabi shay?

Haday rawan mu chethii 3aad!!;/

7mad: La salamtich

Rawan: Yallah m3a elsalama;*

7mad: Rawan?

Rawan: Hala

7mad: Wain 3younha?

I didn't reply..

7mad: Rawan fech shay?

Rawan: La

7mad: 3yl laish m3a elsalama?

Rawan: Bas 7mad mabi akalim 9byan

7mad: Wana al7en 9ert 9bay 3adi blnsba lch?

Rawan: Madre 7mad!

7mad: Aha chethi elsalfa

Rawan: Shnu

7mad: Yallah ma tshoufen shar m3a elsalama

Wtf did you just do Rawan?

This could be the end of it all!!!

Why do you keep destroying things when they are actually working out for you?

Stupid girl.

And offcoase? The only way to get out of this world is by crying..

I cried myself to sleep..

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Weeks passed by and my life is pretty much good but i'm missing half of my heart, but i'm living on the other...

As you see, 7mad owns half of my heart, and the other half? For other people...

To make it easier? 7mad over everybody.

At school? Well, i'm not doing that great.

My total got much lower in the second report; i admit i wasn't studying.

Jude: "Emshaw taboun ngoulha al7en 3an elyear book w shnu ra7 nsawe blbazaar?"

Layan: "Eeh okay yallah emshaw"

Rawan: "Laish ma tkhlouna b79t'ha mnha nthay3 waqt w ma nkhaser waqt elbreak"

Jenan: "Eeeh!"

Jude: "Hhhh khla9 okay b79t'ha 3shan b3ad el9byan ysm3oun shbnswy"

Layan: "Yallah okay"

And right after the break was our Algebra class, and we were wanting to the to tell the teacher about what we were going to do for our yearbook and bazaar because she was the middle school coordinater..

Jude: "Ms we want to tell you what will we do for the yearbook and bazaar"

Teacher: "Yeah okay go ahead"

Jude: "For the yearbook we wan-"

Teacher: "First of all for the yearbook you need supplies right? So why don't you write everything you want and i'll see if i can give you exceptions for it" she interrupted her

Jude: "Okay khla9 m7amd enta e6ba3 elsupplies yebhum bacher"

M7amd: "Okayy"

Teacher: "And for the bazaar what are you willing to do?"

Layan: "We want to do games and we will represent USA"

Teacher: "Only games? Don't you want to sell food or anything?"

Layan&Jude: "No only games"

Teacher: "Okay what kind of games?"

They continued planning on what we'll do, w thanks to me, thaya3na n9 el79a=))!

The rest of my day was awful, i really mean awful!!

I entered twitter just checking my timeline..

I saw 9ager tweeting ask? Malal..

Shkhbaree 9agerr;p!!

I miss him el7ywan;p

I entered his ask any said anonymously 'i miss you yl'3baar;p'

Moments later he replied 'Mnu?'

I said 'Can't say i'm sorry but you should really know that i miss you'

He said 'Ya 3ami ana zain fale7 blenglaizy b3ad yay tkalemni english;(

I said '3shan abayenlik eni eb mdrsa kha9a w ketha;p."

I then entered my ask and found a question..

Question: 'Enty ely eb my ask?' 9ager Alx

I was happy that he knew me, but 6a7 mn 3aine 7aaaaaaaiiilll later...

I entered is ask and said not anonymously 'Eeh ana ely eb your ask;p'

After 15 minutes or so i got 4 questions in ask and all of them were "WHAT'S YOUR KIK?"

To be honest, i really thought it was 9ager so i said my kik..

But my thoughts were wrong, it was "7abeebat 9ager" which her name was Dalal...

Dalal: Salam

Rawan: 3laikum elsalam

Dalal: El9ara7a ely methl ashkalich ma aslem 3alehum bas elsalam lallah mu lch, bas bagoulich sha'3la? dam 9ager ma gam ykalmich felay 3ana eb kubrah w wakhray 3anah mashe? La2ana he's mine! W m7ad ra7 yakhtha;* w la tg3den klshway tdzeen la rfeejah y9wrah 3shan tshoufenah fechay fechay 3anah! A9lan ohwa madre shloun shaf wayhich w ma ekhtra3 ya wajh el3anz, ma aloumich estkhfaity 3aleh la2ana jamel w shaf wa7da methlich fa yanety b3dain ya 7yate entay la t9adgen rou7ch wayed ma kan y7ibch kan ythay3 waqt w asasan kentaw friends w entay ya khfefa kentay mayta 3aleh el9ara7a kesarty kha6re;( etha taben ana athab6lich wa7d nafs 7ajmich w nafs jkrich tra 3adii;(

Those were the exact words she told me^^

I wasn't hurt like this ever!!

And wtf jassem? (9ager's friend)

Flashback..

We were just friends..

And he looks like such a great person so i decided to tell him that i used to know his friend...

Rawan: Jassem?

Jassem: 3younah

Rawan: Ana knt akalim your friend plz la tfhamni '3la6 bas gtlik 3shan la y9er shay b3dain

Jassem: Mnu?

Rawan: Magdar agoul

Jassem: Laish

Rawan: Bas

Jassem: Entay ma tben tgoulen 3shan khayfa la agoula 9a7?

Rawan: Eeeh

Jassem: Enzain wetha w3adtich eni magoula?

Rawan: Okay..

That's my problem, i trust people way too easily..

Jassem: "Wa3ad eni magoula

Rawan: 9ager

Jassem: Aha

The next day i got a snapchat from Jassem 9ager saying "Alsalam 3laikum"

Rawan: 3nad elvideo?

Jassem: Shaku 3nad?

Rawan: Eeh ok

Back to reality...

Wow el9ara7a jassem? Ahneeek *claps* l3bt'ha 3lay 9a7:)!

Rawan: Okay fe shay taben tgoulena b3ad?

Dalal:W tra he's mine again and again mouttaaaay ambaih 9ara7a ana awal mara ashouf bent chethe ga6a nafs'ha 3la el9byan shnu maku karama? chba7 wayh! La w 76atle 9ourat'ha avatar w dp agoul sheleha sheleha 3shan ttzwjain tra etha ma shlteha btg3den eb bait obouch lain tmouten;( TFFUU 3alech ylwa9kha w khal ashem re7at khabar ench sa2la 3anah wela dazatla ask wala shay wqassam la ansech 7aleb omich;*

Rawan: Awal shay m7ad 6alab rayich enshallah ag3ad eb bait obouy lain amout entay shaku? Bayga 7lal obouch ana? W tra kla salam 3la 9ager:) w lel3lm mu ana ely re7t w glt 7ag rfejah t3al 9awerly yah ohwa ely ya w bda k? elsmou7a bas mara7 anazel mustway akthar warid 3laich;*

I deleted her..

I was extremely hurt..

After 5 minutes i recieved a new kik message...

.....: Hello? Esm3e bgulech shay.. n9e7a mne ya3ni wakhray 3an 9ager! la tetlzgain mafe karama wmra7a yredlch 9dgeni la shafch elwer3? 9arqa mnu el7mar ely bekhale elmalak wyru7 7ag elzbala jad? Fakray feha ya3nii! Abk wakhray wayed a7san wgulay 7ag dalal thlfay shoufay shy9er fech!

La jad?

Shlsalfa?

 

I didn't reply, deleted & blocked

I captured it all & sent it to Layan...

Layan: 7greeha rawoon wallah me7tara mnichh! Tabeni akalim 9ager?

Rawan: Shtgoulela?

Layan: Malich sh'3l

Rawan: Layan mn9je

Layan: Bagoula ena khal te7trm nfs'ha la tg3ad tsb khalg allah

Rawan: Okay.

And as usual & as i got to used it; i cried myself to sleep..