Chapter 45 - Finale

It's the last chapter!

I hope you enjoyed the story as much i did!
9j ena kan fe chapters bl'39b ktbt'hum bas 3shankum;p

I want to thank every single person who read my blog, gave me his opinion about the chapter, and kept with me throughout it all..
You are the best thing ever jad thankyou<3.

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Enjoy it!
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9j ena 7mad m3a elayam 9ar ma ysoulef wla ys2al wkila msh'3oul..
W his excuse? 'Akher sna lazm ashid 7aile'

I understood his sitiuation and did everything he wanted..


Rawan: Msh'3oul?
7mad: B3d shwy byeli mudars bas 3adi soulfay 3la ma eyi
Rawan: Madre shgoul;p
7mad: 3adi adg 3laich?
Rawan: Eeh

By seconds..
Incoming call, H<3

Rawan: "Aloo?"
7mad: "Ahlan"
Rawan: "Hala feek"
7mad: "Shlounich?"
Rawan: "Tmam"
7mad: "Hala bl9out ely yrd elrou7"
Rawan: "Hala feek" i giggled
7mad: "Shtswen"
Rawan: "Asma3 a'3ani"
7mad: "Shtsm3en"
Rawan: "Justin"
7mad: "Ahaaaaa" md el'aha' =))
Rawan: "Shnu" i giggled
7mad: "Mashi mashi tsm3en a'3ani hlbnaya ha"
Rawan: "7adik 3ad" i teased him
7mad: "7adik b3d ha? Mal bousa 3la khadich"
Rawan: "3bali btgoul buks"
7mad: "La bousa wela tadren shloun? A6gich b3dain abousich"
Rawan: "Laish 3ad bous bdoun ma t6g"
7mad: "La 3shan lma a6gich ashoufich che taksren kha6re b3dain abousich"
Rawan: "Okay" i laughed
7mad: "Rawon khal ntkhyal"
Rawan: "Ntkhyal shnu"
7mad: "Awal youm 3rsna"
Rawan: "La la" i laughed

He meant something else..
Kinda dirty minded=))..

7mad: "Laish" he giggled
Rawan: "Bas adre shnu tafkerik"
7mad: "Enzain shnu ya3ni khou khal chthe chthe ra7 y9er"
Rawan: "La mabi"
7mad: "Ma tbena y9er? Ya3ni matbeni atzwjich? Ok"
Rawan: "La hey mu qa9di chthe bas qa9di mabi atkhyal"
7mad: "Mu kaifch enzain khla9 ma atklam 3an shsma" he giggled
Rawan: "Shnu shsma"
7mad: "Ely eb balich bas ntkhyal chthe jdam elnas shra7 y9er"
Rawan: "Okay" i giggled
7mad: "Ana tadren shra7 aswe?"
Rawan: "Shnu?"
7mad: "Awal ma ougaf 3nd elbab gabl la adsh arfa3 dshdashti waf9akh elbsht wadshlich rakth akhthich w boooom 3la 6oul elfndq"

I laughed=))
Told you dirty minded=))

Rawan: "Hey hey" i laughed
7mad: "Shnu shfech?"
Rawan: "Shnu tyeli rakth takhethni wtrou7?"
7mad: "Eeh shfech magdar a9br 3la-"
Rawan: "7maad!!" i interrupted him
7mad: "Asef asef" he laughed
Rawan: "Wtgoul ma ra7 ttklam 3an hlshay ha"
7mad: "Akhh mta hlyoum"
Rawan: "Na6ra ya3ni"
7mad: "3la nar wlk entay bas khla9y thanwy qasmn bellah byoum tkharjich mkalim ahlich ana"
Rawan: "La oula shnu lma akhali9 jam3a"
7mad: "Shnu shnu shnu? ma sma3t" he did hear bas yst3b6
Rawan: "lma akhali9 jam3a"
7mad: "Agoul chub gal lma akhali9 jam3a gal"
Rawan: "Eeh b3d shnu"
7mad: "Tyabneni entay? Etha ana al7en madre shloun mt7amel mu 24 sa3a mjabl wayhich kaifch 3ad gtlich byoum tkharjich"
Rawan: "Allah karem lai b3dain taw elnas"
7mad: "Eeh agoulich ya3ni"
7mad: "Yallah rawon chna elmudars ya bas ykhali9 aklmich"
Rawan: "Okay"
7mad: "A7ibch"
Rawan: "Amout feek"

I hung up..


I waited for him bas 6ab3an he totally forgot about me..

I started to think, could these "romantic" side of him is fake to me?
Youm y7ebni w youm ma ywa6eni?


2 days later...

I was checking 7mad's questions+answer on ask.fm

There was a question that caught my attention which he answered 3 days ago..

Question: 7-7-... ;'(<3
Answer: Mshtag 7ag hlyoum bas ma bedi 7ela;(


Wtf 7mad?

Was i just a joke to you?


I kik-ed him..

Rawan: 7-7-... ?
7mad: Shnu
Rawan: Jwabik eb ask
7mad: Bdoun chthb? Knt akalim w7da wkan awal youm nkalim feh b3th 7-7 bas mnzman flaina mabi achathb 3laich etha mu m9dga 3endi dalel eni flait

I was extemely shocked.

Rawan: M9adga
7mad: Nafseti t3bt bas taben klam 9j? Tra m7d ystahel 7ub hlayam
Rawan: Mu elkil nafs'ha
7mad: Adre bas hl e7na mktouben 7ag b3th? Mabi a7ab6ich bas ana ga3d atklam bkil 9ara7a


Wtf? THIS IS NOT 7MAD!!

Wain 7mad ely kila ytkhyal w y7in yabi ntzwaj?

7mad: lai mta bg3ad achathb wat'harab wal3ab 3la bnt galbha abyath khla9 mlait wana aklim nafseti t3bt rawan tabeni friend ana ma3endi mshkla bas 7ub asef ana nou3i etha 7bait a7b mn galb wana mu mst3d a7ib ward afil wakser galbi jrabt'ha m3ach w m3aha w mu mst3d ajrbha thalth mara la2ana el7ub mu '3shmara
7mad: 7ta ely klmt'ha khanatni m3a wa7d wgtlha allah yhnech m3ah la2ana a7ib ely a7ba ykoun mstans
Rawan: Knt t7bha wayed?
7mad: Eeh

I shed a tear..


Wai3 mn wain y6l3oun hathoul;(


7mad: Mu 3balich ana ma7ibch rawan tra entay must7el t6l3en mn galbi bas mu mst3d akhlech t7beni akthar akher shay nftrg mabi akhlech mtansa b3dain t2aysen mara wa7da
7mad: Brb ana blshalaih al7en

The only thing i could say was 'Tyt'


Why does this keep happening to me?

Kl ma aba6el bab wya 7mad yrd yt9akar?

I think we're just not meant to be together.


I was glad though.

I was glad he ended this now better than later..


He deleted me snapchat, blocked me whatsapp, did everything i never thought he would do.


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I've been better now, my grades are really great somehow;p

My weight? Well, let me not talk about this=))

Love? Nobody will ever take 7mad's place.

What i noticed my life is hate more than it is love..

My friends were a huge part of me, they've been there for me through this all & i'm so blessed to have such people like them.

My life is missing such an important part but it's going on..


7mad? سأكتفي بك حلما , فواقعك ليس لي.

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THE END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!